You're floating. You're flying. You're Dancing in the rain.
Its indescribable.
But the euphoria you feel is short lived.
It goes away so fast.
You try again, but it's not quite the same.
You keep trying, but you can't get the feeling back.
So you quit.
Your supplier comes back
The promises come, "it'll be better than the first time"
"I promise"
You say "no" "I'm done"
After a while the no's turn into a yes,
you've given in.
You want that high.
You need that high.
You take the hit, and it's good.
Sooo good
Again you're floating, you're flying, you're dancing in the rain.
The feeling is indescribable.
It lasts a little longer this time.
Yet. You realize you're not as high as the first time
But it still feels good.
You indulge, you relax, you're free.
Bam, you crash.
Now you're hurting.
The Pain has taken ahold of you.
You can't take the pain
So you take another hit.
But the pain is still there
You'll do anything to make it go away
You'll do anything to make it feel like the first time
You take another hit
You lose everything
Yourself.
Weight.
Self respect.
Self Esteem.
Again, you quit
But you still want to fly
You still want to float
You still want to dance in the rain
But you can't
You've tried everything
Nothing compares
You need it.
You feel incomplete.
You beg for more
You plead
You gravel
You make any promise that you can
Anything to feel that first high
You need it
You crave it
You get high again
Only this time you feel nothing
No dancing. No flying. No rain.
It's time to move on....
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